Im so sick of this frequent pain
that constantly runs through my veins
affecting both my muscles and brain
when will I feel normal again?
I certainly don’t have much in life
besides my constant will to fight
I no longer have much might
and I’m slowly losing that will to fight
that will to continue breathing
sometimes I’d rather be dead and buried
rather than sufffer this searing pain again.
How will I make it through this winter
without killing myself
I don’t see a way out unless I get remission myself
but alsas I’m on no meds and can’t get a clinical trial
so I might die its true I won’t sit here in denial.