What a shame all I can feel is pain
I wish I could smile but my emotions seemingly no longer exist
it’s as if that part of my brain was turned off with the flick of a switch
now all I do is sit here and write
embracing the only gift I have left in my life.
Besides having a living fiance and a good family I don’t know what is left for me
I feel so deceived this isn’t how my life was supposed to be
I wanted to support Venus until she got her PH.D
now I feel like nothing but a weed, a burden with some rare disease
like all I can say is please do this and sorry for that I feel like an animal
like some sort of rat that should be stomped on!
What am I but a rare disease, just a terminal patient waiting to be deceased
what happened to the michael that used to enjoy life and care free living
he no longer exists at least that’s how it seems to me
how can I reach him just to tell him he’ll be back someday
it seem impossible like my mind has gone completely astray.
This situation is horrible I just can’t take it anymore
but just as I said that there was a knock at the door
I opened the box to see a letter that I’d become a US Pain Ambassador
and my hope arose again like a dove in a garden
what US Pain has done for me is give me hope in being me again someday
even if it is years away, I could care less as long as I can be me again
thank you US Pain for this honorable position!