Some of you might have been wondering what the heck has been going on since I haven’t been posting the past few days. The truth is I haven’t even been on the computer besides for perhaps 10 minutes one day to update my web designer. I’ve simply been feeling too sick like I have the flu or something on top of all my usual pain and discomfort. And to top it all off this morning my urine was dark brown so perhaps more kidney and bladder issues? I suppose I will find out later today after a visit to my primary care physician who I truly hope doesn’t send me back to that urologist, cystoscopy sure isn’t comfortable.
Anyway I don’t really even feel like I’m well enough to be typing this I can feel my eyes swelling and my migraine ramping up as I type.I also have a horrid nauseated feeling and a strong feeling of weakness. I like being clean yet I haven’t showered or even changed clothing in 3 days that’s how much it hurts to move. It’s absolutely excruciating even to sit here in silence so I try to distract myself with typing or reading but it’s just too hard on my hands and eyes respectively. I’ve been trying my hardest to type up some content and it has been in my head so the content is there I just physically cannot manage to type it up all the time now. I do have the Dragon Voice to Text software and plan on learning how to use it properly over the next month or two if I can, right now all I lack for that is a comfortable headset with a mic. I haven’t had one since I used to play Call of Duty on my PC.
The whole point of this post is to say I’m still here and typing I haven’t gone anywhere. I will honestly try to keep trying every day but as my body fails me don’t be surprised if you see small periods of inactivity. If you truly do care about what’s going on feel free to email me and I will get back to you ASAP. This isn’t me being burnt out or tired of advocacy I’ve just been sleeping more and more as well as waking up in far more pain every single day. I really do appreciate every reader I have and the time you all put into reading my articles and poetry.
In fact to help cover me in dark times like this I’ll be hiring some volunteers/interns soon to keep the articles coming even if I am personally out of commission. Expect 2-3 guest articles per week once I find the right people, they may be patients, caregivers, family members living with someone in chronic pain, or perhaps even some doctors though this is a patient-centric website. I truly hope to get back to my daily writing soon because I do miss it honestly my only excuse has been pain. I don’t know how to deal with it right now but that’s what I’ve been spending my days trying to figure out exactly how to change my life for the better,
I hope all my readers have been doing well and that you’ve been in as little pain as possible. I also wish your families good health as that’s what’s most important in life your loved ones. Thank you for reading and please continue to do so I will try to write a few back up articles whenever I’m bored so you all will always have something to read and a situation like this won’t have to occur again. Again though I’m sorry for slacking off lately due to all the illness I don’t consider it a good excuse and that’s why I’m apologizing.