tests 

Sometimes life just loves to test. It always seems to get your when you try to make new strides.it wants to see if you can keep going. I know I’m not suffering physically but mentally I get beat up when michael suffering seems to hit its peak of a viscious roller cosaster that we’ve been…

Lazy

Today I awoke late for the day but I was happy to be at michael’s house. With my recent activites I was too busy to stop by during the week and decided to stay over his house for the weekend. I even brought Luna my new almost 3 month year old mini schnauzer.  She is…

Make yourself happy

“When your a caregiver it is important yes to pay attention to the needs of the individual you care for but when you get so absorbed to the point where you snap or can’t think about anything but the person themselves in my opinion is one that is not healthy. How can you make clear cut decisions when your mind is in a different place? I need to take care of my self to be someone’s rock. “

Speak Out

What do you do when you hear the cries of pain from someone you love.?When the mere touch of your gentle hand can actually cause more pain rather than comfort? Psychologically it is something easy to deal with and unfortunately it has been happening to me With Mike declining health comes troubles and tribulations of…

for you

Awake to flurries of pure white snow landing gently on the ground And it’s like the world is a new place The silence that seem to always accompany it can be a much welcomed thing when your mind is in such a storm of a different kind Sometimes it’s not just your mind Your body…

Venus is Back

** I wrote this around 12am today but am only able to release to you guys now. This helped me alot and I hope to keep my writing alive again”” Now this feels weird sitting here typing to you guys. It has sadly been a while. I want to say that it has been time…

Salvation

Inner battle Unknown futures The beautiful mind Causing the insanity Constantly worrying Am I good enough? Am I doing everything that I can? What if I do this wrong? The rejections don’t help Nor the beautiful love that I have Fighting for himself Don’t ask me why I think this way I often wish I…

Musings of a girl

Please forgive me love For I don’t know what I do This darkness hurts me so Sometimes I escape To a place not so distant To find my inner I don’t leave for long I just need to free my mind Not for just I But for us For you are part me Wonderfully Im…